Episode 7: Motherhood

In the words of our Managing Editor, Aïcha Martine Thiam: “Motherhood has often been considered a pinnacle of wisdom and serenity, a sort of joining together of all those parts of ourselves that were supposedly, until this point, in lesser focus. But in truth, more often than not, motherhood opens more doors than it closes. It is an endless series of complications and ambiguities that are put into sharper relief by the arrival of a daughter.

“Some mothers are bestowed with this charge before they are ready; broken girls who have barely stayed the hand on their volatility. Others must go to bat for that coveted title, shouldering setback after heartbreaking setback just to bring a little one to life. And then of course, there are all those in between, willing or unwilling to take on the challenge, aware or unaware that this is what they want, convinced that they have all the answers their own daughterhood did not provide: and always, they are proved wrong.

“In that transition from daughterhood to motherhood, women often become locked in this intrinsic cycle of seeing themselves in their mothers, and seeing themselves in their daughters; to the point where they are merely Venn Diagrams where they believe only the most complicated aspects of both parts meet. Mothers often spend a lifetime rejecting and loving themselves through their daughters, rejecting and loving the ways in which they are different from, or similar to them. This is simultaneously thrilling and terrible, and it spills out into the way they love their daughters, or are incapable of doing so.

“What emerges from the following four stories is this precise push and pull, that aforementioned ambiguity, pondered through the lens of devotion and loss, of privilege and resentment, of injustice and forgiveness. More so than the way they were raised or the choices they make, the way these women approach that ambiguity often sets the tone for the kind of mothers they are, were, or could be. These stories do not seek the closure at the end of that long string of questioning: rather, they acknowledge that sailing the tricky waters of life with a daughter is a series of half-certainties that aren’t meant to be answered, but merely re-asked, and re-examined over and over again, until it makes or breaks you.”

Act 1: “Miscarriages of Social Justice,” by Kelly A. Dorgan and read by Candy Bryant. Published in The Nasiona, 20 December 2018.

In “Miscarriages of Social Justice,” Kelly A. Dorgan filters her personal tragedy through the standpoint of privilege. She notes how she underwent a series of miscarriages in an atmosphere of care and support that women of other socioeconomic backgrounds are seldom accorded. By doing so, she reflects on the singularity of discrimination and trauma that often cuts across the lines of universality women might share.

Act 2: “About Chains,” written and read by Holly Pelesky. Published in The Nasiona, 10 January 2019.

In this next story, a letter to the daughter she put up for adoption, Holly Pelesky studies motherhood through the angles of her splintered bond with her own mother, as if to say: this is why I am the way I am, and this is why I did what I did when it came to you. It is a haunting observation of our perceived similarities with the women who gave birth to us and the women we give birth to, and of the way daughters often cement their mothers’ fates, either by trapping, or freeing them.

Act 3: “Diptych: Origins, Neurodivergence,” by Deborah Elderhorst and read by Jo Weston. Published in The Nasiona, 13 February 2019.

This next story is a love letter from Deborah Elderhorst to her daughter. The bond she describes is a beautiful, profound one, and brings to light that age-old notion of a mother’s unconditional love. Conversely, it also challenges a commonly-held concept: it is generally accepted that mothers can be their daughters’ most powerful teachers, for good or ill. But when it is least expected, daughters can also split open their mothers’ understanding of the world, revealing universes of wonders they did not know could exist.

Act 4: “Wedding Portrait,” by Jennifer Bostwick Owens and read by Monique Shutt. Published in The Nasiona, 22 January 2019.

In “Wedding Portrait,” a parallel story is told: that of a moment of sweet bonding between author Jennifer Bostwick Owens and her biracial daughter over the viewing of Prince Harry and Meghan Markle’s wedding, and that of Owens’ reminiscence on the challenges she faced, decades earlier, when she fell for a black man at the strong disapproval of her white family. The cultural significance of the royal wedding is an occasion for her to reflect on the power that love has to bring about acceptance, and vice-versa, the only legacy she wishes to pass onto her children.

The Nasiona Podcast shares stories that explore the spectrum of human experience and glimpse into foreign worlds. We focus on stories based on facts, truth-seeking, human concerns, real events, and real people, with a personal touch. From liminal lives to the marginalized, and everything in between, we believe that the subjective can offer its own reality and reveal truths some facts can’t discover. Hosted, edited, and produced by Julián Esteban Torres López.

Our theme song is “Into the West,” courtesy of Tan Vampires.

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